Is there anything wrong with being a tad bit narcissistic? The last couple of nights have been crazy and I have felt so desired, hot and confident. Quite the turn-a-round from two weeks prior when I was feeling worthless. Its amazing how much counseling and some med’s ha ha. I am about to be picked [...]
Archive for November, 2007
So…
Posted in Uncategorized on November 27, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
a new begining…
Posted in Uncategorized on November 21, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
So after a brief hospital stay, some meds, and the realization that my parents should not be allowed to manipulate me, especially as far away as they are. Nor should I live my life for them. Seemingly simple enough, with one draw back, leaving my little sister and brothers. I am to become someone completely [...]
Who can love the broken
Posted in depressed, gay, love on November 7, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I’m withdrawing, I don’t even feel it anymore… no pain… no sadness, just complete ambivalence. It’s almost as if I am immune to it, to everything. I want to escape, to go somewhere new. TO BE NEW… but I can’t. I’m stuck here, broken, unhappy… saddened. Should I tell her that my world is caving [...]
Maybe I write too much
Posted in Uncategorized on November 5, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
So… being aware of your crap and dealing with your crap are two different things… as quoted from Gray’s Anatomy from Yang. Yea… I think I am definitely aware of my problems but not particularly sure how to correct them… see this is why I had to go see a counselor, because I am aware [...]
Love… or asking too much?
Posted in gay, love, relationships on November 2, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
So my ex’s roommate who I thought was flirting, instead turned our dinner tonight into a double date Saturday with he, his boyfriend, My ex and I. Which is actually a really pleasant surprise. And apparently my ex wants to see me… It’s cute, beyond a doubt… but almost awkward, because I’m not sure how [...]
Today 1 November, 2007
Posted in Uncategorized on November 1, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I find myself in a unique circumstance, at a crossroads in almost every area of life. The uniqueness itself comes however not from the multiplicity of options and areas in which I must decide, instead if comes in the form of ambivalence. I am completely ambivalent to which direction my life takes. I find that [...]
My first entry
Posted in gay on November 1, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I am keeping this, because I think it will be helpful in the long run. Perhaps if not for me, then for someone else who can find some strength in knowing that they are not alone. Despite how alone they may feel. I know that I feel that way. That I do not always know [...]
